your existence

Our purpose and existence has always been a mystery but I have found an answer that I can believe in. We live to make the people around us happy because happiness is contagious. With that goal in mind, I know what to work for and where to find the energy to continue forth. The only part that saddens me is how hard it is to actually get to the place I need to be. I know the destination but I fear the path. At times I am the one holding myself back; I hold these fists knowing that is all I will have. If I let go I will gain so much more but I cannot do it. The reasoning is clear however I lack the directions to tell me how. One day at a time maybe I will learn yet there are so many moments that I feel myself moving backwards.